Dream Last Night

I have had some trouble with my faith for quite some time.  I’ve also been struggling with Christmas for at least a couple of years.  This year was no exception.  I have not been able to get in the mood for a variety of reasons.

Yesterday was a long day and I got into bed late; after the annual tradition of opening the gifts.  I had a somewhat odd dream.  I don’t remember a lot of details, but I was in a tornado.  I remember that I didn’t have time to even react or prepare for it.  It came up suddenly and I was in a trailer home.  I have never lived in a trailer home, but I have known people who live in them.  In the dream, the wind became ferocious and picked up the trailer with me in it.  I knew that I was going to die, so I determined that I would wait for the crash.  The wind had me holding on but being thrown about.  I remember thinking, “Well, I guess I could pray, but I don’t even know if I believe in God anymore; so that would be useless and wrong.  I debated with myself while flying through the air and finally settled on praying; just in case.  I started with the Lord’s Prayer and then moved to a sort of “If you save me, I’ll know you’re real” type prayer.  I was calm the entire time.  Then, I felt this sort of pressure around my torso.  I could hear the wind howling and wailing around me but didn’t know if I was still flying around or had crashed back to earth.  I remember trying to figure out if I had landed or not; then thinking, “What is this pressure around my body?”  It was like arms were around me.  That’s all I remember.

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